Panic Mode!!

Yes today is the day!! I have to go in for my HSG and I'm a tad bit nervous about it. I know I have been told not to worry about it. I have also been told that it’s not too painful. I have heard that the most pain you will be in is from the shot they give your cervix... But I soo nervous and I can't help it!! This is actually the first procedure I have had done regarding infertility. I have had several vag ultrasounds before but nothing besides that. So here we go!!! I'm going to be stepping into the unknown in a few hours. PRAY FOR ME!!!!

I tried to get this written yesterday but I have been so busy at work. Which is a geat thing!! Keeps my mind occupied but I wasn't able to tell all of you what was going on. So anyhoo please think of me today. Oh and one of the biggest reasons I'm so freaking nervous is that my Bloody Aunt Flow still hasn't freaking left town yet!!! Its not as bad as it was the other day but she is still hanging around and I know I'm going to be mortified in a few hours!!! So here we go....

If any of you were wondering?.... (TMI warning)

My Gift arrived from mother nature yesterday morning while I was at work! I have never wanted to scream and cry about something like that before! But I tried to keep my composure and but then I did a little happy dance in the ladies bathroom. And then while dancing I started to cry because it has been such a freaking long time! I have FINALLY started a new cycle!!! I can quite taping pages to my more the 3 foot long cycle. I actually have a game plane!! I'm going to beat this thing and I'm not going to be defeated!! I had a freaking period!!!!! How freaking awesome is that? (How many more times can I write freaking?) Well last night it wasn't so awesome... I was in major agony but oh such sweet agony!! I happily laid on my sofa with my feet up and a heating pad and my box of Godiva chocolates and I knew that I deserved it. This has been a very different period then anything I have ever had. I feel absolutely terrible. I'm wondering if its because he has me on an aspirin regimen. It is pretty bad. I have almost all our bedding in the tub soaking. It looked like my husband murdered me last night! I was told by the RE that I wasn't building lining upon lining! But I really don't know where all this "gift" is coming from... Too many more days like this and my hubs will be able to collect on the life insurance policy. I didn't know I could lose this much blood and still be alive... Not that I feel alive right now. I actually feel like death warmed over. But it may just be because my body isn't used to going though this and I'm just a freaking big baby!!! But don't get my wrong I'm not complaining about all this. I actually laughed when I saw the sheets this morning!! It reminded me of that old movie Carrie for some odd reason. It was quite comical. Not so much now that I'm having trouble getting the stains out of my beautiful Ivory Egyptian cotton sheets. But that serves me right for only liking light colored sheets... I am truly laughing at myself!!! One of these days I will learn!! Until then does any one have any good tricks at getting stains out of Ivory cotton?

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1. Where is your cell phone? desk
2. Your hair? Brown
3. Your mother? Cold
4. Your father? Confused
5. Your favorite food? Italian
6. Your dream last night? Weird
7. Your favorite drink? Water
8. Your dream/goal? Mom
9. What room are you in? office
10. Your hobby? Blogging!!
11. Your fear? Snakes
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Home
13. Where were you last night? Home
14. Something that you aren’t? pregnant
15. Muffins? banana
16. Wish list item? laptop
17. Where did you grow up? Indiana
18. Last thing you did? type
19. What are you wearing? clothes
20. Your TV? satellite
21. Your pets? pissy missy
22. Friends? Few
23. Your life? crazy
24. Your mood? Happy
25. Missing someone? Brother
26. Vehicle? Mustang
27. Something you’re not wearing? necklace
28. Your favorite store? antique
29. Your favorite color? red
30. When was the last time you laughed? 5 min
31. Last time you cried? Wednesday
32. Your best friend? Mr. Farmer
33. One place that I go to over and over? work
34. One person who emails me regularly? Robbi
35. Favorite place to eat? Los Aztecas

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Perks of the Job

I had a sucky morning at work. I just really couldn't seem to do a damn thing right. Everything I touched just fell apart at my finger tips. And then I ran to meet a friend of mine for lunch and when I came back to my office I found this...





Yes that is a box from Godiva Chocolatier





And this is a letter telling me how much they appreciate my business. And how they are hoping to help me again with my gift giving needs... I had ordered quite a few gifts for some of my sales reps from them last Christmas. And of course everyone loved them.





This is just tissue paper but I thought it might add to the mystique of the package.





What the HELL? Why is it soo small? That's a big box for not a lot of chocolate!!!





This is a reusable Ice Pack from Godiva!! How cool is that?





Mmmmm Belgian Chocolate!!!! Me Likey!!!





And yes there is a heart!!! Am I seeing a theme here?

So yes after that rough of a morning its nice to sit down here at home and send myself into a sugar coma!!!

This weekend

Well I have an update of sorts on little S the girl I wrote about here
She has been found. Her mother had abandoned her. But now she is in the custody of her grandparents. Thank You Lord!!! We found this out last night from my hubbs cousin. They really think she will be happier now. I can't imagine what had happened and her mother ought to be thrown in jail for life. But I don't think they even know where she is. Oh and the kicker is this women had another child that was an infant and she left it with a friend of hers to raise!!! WTH?!! I'm just glad that S will be taken care of and will not have to survive on her own any more and is in a home of people who love her and will protect her.

Our weekend went well the weather was beautiful!! I worked on getting the porches decorated for fall. One of the perks of living in a farming community is that you can always "borrow" melons, pumpkins, corn you name it we swap for it. Usually Mr. Farmer gets called out by the local farmers to come and fix equipment or to advise on broken tractors etc. Hubby has been a tractor mechanic for years. He loves tinkering on anything with a motor. As long as its not a chevy that is... :) He is a tad partial to Fords. Anyway hubs took me to one of our neighbors pumpkin fields to get pumpkins cause I have been hounding him for a week to bring some home when he ran by there... But this way I got to pick my own. We had about 14 mama jama pumpkins in the bed of that truck. They are just gorgeous this year. There is just something about fall that just stirs me up inside. I love the falling leaves and the colors and the crisp air. I just love love love fall! I love getting to wear my sweaters and boots! Riding in the combine with my honey. Having bon fires and roasting marshmallows. Mmmm I just love fall!! I took some pictures too. I have to tell you I'm addicted to hearts. I collect them and if its cool and unusual I will buy the item that is covered in hearts, is a heart or what have you. Saturday I was grocery shopping and found a huge container of gourds which I usually buy a few for decorations. So I start digging in this bin for the best gourds and I find myself a little gourd that had a heart!! It was so unusual!!!




I'll post some pictures of the pumpkins we got last night later. For now I will show you a pic of my favorite flower/bush thingy that is in my front yard. I have no idea what the name is but I have 5 of them and they are huge. And the butterflies love them!!! The flowers are just covered in butterflies throughout the day.




Oh and if your wondering if my body has reacted badly to the prometrium!!! I will have to tell you that is hasn't!! I can't believe it!!! I'm actually on double the dose I have usually been on in the past. But this time around I haven't had the bloating, nor the severe cramps, headaches, nausea. I really think its because of the acupuncture. That is the only thing I have done differently since the last prometrium induced period which was Jan of 2009. So I highly recommend acupuncture!! I have my appointment with Beth the most wonderful acupuncturist in the world this afternoon!! You all will think this is terrible of me. But at my RE appt last Thursday I completely forgot to bring up the fact that I had been going to acu for the past 6 months. I got brain freeze when they told me I was going to have to have an HSG and he wanted me to start inject ables. I wasn't able to think properly after that. But the sad thing is that it wasn't until this morning while washing my hair that I had remembered that I didn't tell him about how I wanted to keep seeing her... Which I really highly doubt it will be a problem this cycle anyway because we aren't officially "trying" this time around. But anyway I guess I'll just tell her to stick me where it will make aunt flow's visit more imminent and skip the traditional Chinese herbs. Oh and the RE recommended that I start taking a baby aspirin and 1000mg of Folic acid along with my prenatal vit. So that might be helping with the lack of side effects. But I'm not sure.

Oh and I'm going to leave you with a couple more pics I took last night. Of my puppies and hubby. My fur kids love watermelon and this will probably be the last melon of the season since we have mowed them all down and plowed the field. We kept several for the kids and this is the last one we had.


Daddy Farmer, Buddy & Maggie



Maggie



Buddy