99 Things about Me

I have to say I stole this post from Marla Please drop by and see one of my favorite bloggy friends. She always posts fun stuff! So I thought I would play along. I love finding out all kinds of fun stuff about people.

If your here from ICLW welcome! I can't wait to meet you all. I'm really going to try and at least peek at each blog on this month's list... Hopefully!! But if the weather is super nice out Hubby might need me in the fields so I won't be able to. As my blog name states I'm a Farmer's wife. We live on my Hubby's Family Farm. It's been in the family FOREEEEEVVVVVVER


And we have been TTC for 2 years now. I have PCOS which is sooooo not fun. We are kind of on a break since Mama Farmer (aka Hubby's Mama) was diagnosed with Cancer. We are hoping to start fertility treatments again in July. God willing! But anyway that's our life in a nutshell thanks for stopping by and I hope you stick around and get to know me a little. I promise to check you out if you leave me a comment. Thanks again! And have a very happy ICLW!!!


99 Things About Me

1. Started your own blog – Yes Indeed!!!
2. Slept under the stars - Oh yes and it is heavenly!!!
3. Played in a band - I played the guitar for our church choir a few times but I mostly just sang. So I don't know it that counts. I would love to have been in a REAL Band
4. Visited Hawaii- Yes and it truly is paradise!! My baby brother lives there and I'm trying to work in another visit soon.... Hopefully
5. Watched a meteor shower - Yes I Remember sitting on a dock in the middle of a huge lake at about 2:00 in the morning with one of my best friends and we sat there all night talking and drinking beer and watching and wishing and every star... It was awesome!! I miss you H. Thomas!!!!
6. Given more than you can afford to charity- Well I don't feel like I ever give what I want to give. But I try.
7. Been to DisneyWorld - Yes
8. Climbed a mountain- Yes the last one was Diamond Head in Hawaii
9. Held a praying mantis - Nope
10. Sang a solo - Yes I love to sing
11. Bungee jumped - No but my Hubby has and loves it!
12. Visited Paris - Yep I actually spent my 15th birthday there. Lord was it amazing!!!
13. Watched a lightning storm - Yes I

Leo

Yes my horoscope tells me I'm a Leo. I'm not really into all that nonsense but on occasion I will read it if some one has a copy of the paper laying on their desk. Today one of the guys I work with had an article he wanted me to read in our local paper. So I read it and my eyes glanced over to the Horoscope column and quickly found this:

LEO (July 23- Aug 22) - Some major impediments in an arrangement you're trying to get to work will finally break away and let you grow crops in what was a field of weeds.

Ummmm Well that was interesting! I do tend to think of my body as a barren field... So what would the major impediment be? Maybe the fact that I did not ovulate with my miracle herbs! Or maybe I will get another period on them in the next week or so and then in the new cycle I will ovulate!!!!... That is a lot to think about. I just thought I would share this with you all. Since I thought it was so funny that it was farming related and kinda sorta made me think. I'm thinking I need you all to give me your insights on what this horoscope means. I don't know how to decipher them. And I always like to add: "In Bed" even though you are only supposed to do that on fortune cookies!! :)

Oh Holy cow!!! For shits and Giggles I just read Mr. Farmers!! Hold on to your hats!!!

Pisces (Feb 20- March 20) - If you have something interesting you've been working on, and you are ready to launch, throw the switch now. You could be extremely lucky today regarding new endeavors.

WOW! Now if that's not creepy I don't know what is! I think just to be on the safe side I might have to jump Mr. Farmer tonight... Hey my Horoscope said so right?

Fertility update: I pulled out the dreaded, evil and despicable CBEFM. Back when I began spotting about 31 days ago and i peed on sticks faithfully every morning for 20 days. Now it's telling me it's low again I never got a peak fert symbol. But I feel really good taking this stuff I don't know what it's doing. I had some pretty weird cramping right around the time I "should" have been ovulating. So maybe my body is trying to do this. I think I will go one more round on the "Au natural stuff" and then maybe in about 2 months time we will be in a better position to go back to the RE and try again. Mama Farmer actually feels somewhat better but she is carrying a whole lot of equipment around with her. They just added a vacuum to the wound on her stomach to assist in the healing. Her body just is not wanting to heal and I know the chemo probably is mostly to blame for that. But hopefully by the end of June she will have finished all the Chemo treatments. She had to do 13 total and we will be coming up on the 11th this next week. So by July Mr. Farmer will have harvested the wheat got the late beans planted and we will slow down a little. And I will be on may way to Dr. B.... Maybe

Why Me?

You know how I posted all those smart and snappy remarks to use for when some one came up to me and asked why Mr. Farmer and I still hadn't produced any children... Well those funny little remarks flew right out of my head yesterday when a guy I have worked with for 7 years said one of the most terrible comments I have ever gotten.... I was sitting at my desk minding my business as usual. He came by to stand in my office door since my office is near the sales fax. Jim pokes his head in and asks: So Mrs. Farmer how was your Mother's Day? I shrugged my shoulders and said Jim you do know that I don't have kids right? Oh yes I know... So did you have a good Mother's Day. And so I said yes it was fine, I planted flowers and spent some time with My Mother In Law. And then he proceeds to ask me: So Mrs. Farmer will this be the Last Mother's Day you celebrate with out children?... OMFG!!!! He even laughed after he said it... Like he had just told the funniest joke of the day. I sat there and imagined smashing his head in with my fist... And pulling out that evil tongue that said such nasty things. And do you know what? The only thing I could think up to say was WOW! I think I shook my head looked down at my hands and said wow a second time and then I told Jim I don't know? Why don't you tell me? Is this going to be the last one? I literally had to bite the insides of my cheeks as he walked away so I could keep from crying! I would never in a million years have said that to someone who didn't have children. Esp if I had worked with them for 7 years!! And that person had not had children and didn't ever talk about children. You would kind of get the hint that it might be a tad taboo!!! I'm still flabbergasted today as I type this out. Why do people think that it's funny? And why would they think it was their business to know that kind of personal information while waiting on a fax? I hate people.... I hate people I work with... I hate people who think they should know every juicy bit of information about you but never share the slightest bit of information about themselves... I hate that I'm the type of person that gets hurt by stupid people like that!

This Saturday night depending on the weather... Mr. Farmer and I will be heading out to his High School Mixer. Which is usually tons of fun. But because of the timing we don't always get to go because of planting season and the fact that crops need to get put into the ground before we can party. So the last 2 years we haven't made it to the mixer. So this year could be the first year we have gone since we have been officially TTC. And I know the phrases that I love to hear will be thrown out there and then they will be followed by awkward silences. I'm just hoping I can get tanked up really good this year and I won't remember any of the rude questions about our still being childless or I get really tanked up and throw some not so nice comments back!

Mr. Farmer is 6 years older then me. And so many of the couples that we know have children that are already in Kindergarten and a few are even older then that. Some of these couples have been together as long as Mr. Farmer and I have been together. We were just a little slower at getting married. Hubby and I dated for 5 years before we got married so altogether we have been a couple for nearly nine years!!! So every time we get together with his crowd we have to hear all kinds of "helpful advice" not so nice comments and some actually down right rude comments.

But this time around I'm going to implement a plan to counter attack the nosy fertile ones... See below!!!

Here are my top 5 excuses that I'm going to use when someone comes up to ask why we haven't had any kids yet... Or some other idiotic question regarding my reproductive status! This time I'm going to be prepared!

1.) Well see I don't want to loose my School girl Figure... (::Insert hysterically drunk laughing here:: and then point at the woman who said the above comment or point to said commenter's wife and say:: "like you/she did"::and then laugh again::)

2.) Well see I like to be able to drink alcohol till my face turns numb!!! And you can't really do that if your knocked up or have a kid hanging on you...

3.) Well we don't have to worry about getting home to relieve a babysitter. Heck we could drive to Florida tonight and we wouldn't have to tell a soul!

4.) Mr. Farmer and I can sleep in as late as we want after an all night drinking binge. And we don't have to worry about having to get up to take care of a little kiddo.

5.) My 1968 Brittany Blue Mustang would not look very cool with a baby seat in the back

I'm sure I don't have to explain that I would gladly give up all these things for the rest of eternity if I knew I could have child in my arms... But by actually acknowledging that we have a problem to some of these idiots would just make it ten time worse. So for me and Mr. Farmer it's easier to think of funny or not so nice come backs to say to nosy people who don't really need to know our reproductive status... Please think of some more good come backs and share them in the comments!! I'm sure we are going to need them!

Love & Hugs

National Day of Prayer

Since today is the National Day of Prayer and I thought I would write about prayer.

I have been trying to pray for all of my bloggy friends everyday. I thought I would ask the same of you. I know some people don't believe in prayer and I have only lately began to pray again. I'm not asking you to pray to God if you don't believe. But please just send some good thoughts out to each other. Or a great big virtual hug to each other.

I don't know what has come over me lately but I have been trying harder and harder to pray for God's will instead of my own... It has been so difficult asking for that. Instead of praying that "I become pregnant as soon as possible." or "please make me a mother." I'm actually trying to focus on what is, meant To Be. Not what I want, To Be. It has been such a struggle. Some days it has been easier then others. And some days not so easy. But I thought if maybe we could all pray, send happy thoughts, or just some good karma to each other it might bring some peace into our hearts. So please think of all our bloggy sisters today!!

Sending you all the prayers and good thoughts I can muster!!!

Love & Hugs