Tuesday, February 3, 2009

A Big Joke?

Everyday I wake up and try and tell myself that this whole infetility thing is NOT going to get me down today!! I'm not going to become a wailing idiot by crying over pregnancies and babies!!! I won't let myself be one of those types...
But then I get a phone call from a well meaning Aunt saying that my cousin who has only been seeing his girlfriend for less then a year has gotten her pregnant and they have been TRYING for all of 3 months!!!! Poor little dears!!! Bless their pea picking little hearts!!! So yet again another one of my cousins is going to have a baby and I have to watch her belly grow every week and help throw a shower for this women!! Why does this happen? Why is it that I can't have this? I'm swear its like this big Joke on ME!!! Lets see if she falls apart this time?

I was never a negative person I have ALWAYS been positive but this whole thing is beating me to the ground!!! Its so hard to stay positive in this enviroment. I can't take all this crap!!! Hell I have Aunts and friends telling me that "If I would just relax It would Happen!" Jeez thanks for the info I hadn't thought of that before!!! I just want to know what the hell the punch line is to this joke...

1 comment:

Alexa said...

I know EXACTLY how you feel. I have the same problem - I keep telling myself, get a grip, you're NOT going to be one of those women who can't think, breathe or eat anything but babies. I can even smile and nod appreciatively at a cute kid without completely losing it. I'll just be sitting in the car on the way home with big fat tears blurring my vision. I feel for you, I really do - I wish I had words of comfort, but I guess the only thing any one of us in this situation can ever really do is grin and bear it. ***HUGS*** Alexa

 

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