I'm slowly coming out of my coma...

I fell off the face of the earth!! Yes I did!! I have fallen and I'm just starting to get up...

I think I just got into a funk of not wanting to deal with all the crap going on. So I just shut it out of my head (thinking like I usually do) that I would deal with it later...

My checking account got hacked into and over $600 was stolen from me... That took about 2 weeks to resolve. So thank God that is over! Then the company I work for thought it would be fun to change our whole sales software. They didn't give our customers any warning. Much less a warning for us. It was a VERY bad decision and in the end it has come back to bite them but has caught all us lowly sales people in the cross hairs. And yet again 2 other friends are pregnant. I found out recently and it hit me pretty hard. Both of these women have 4 children each already. And they have hardly any means of supporting the children they do have and yet they are adding another one to the brood. And I'm supposed to be happy about this?!!!!

On a happier note the Chemo for my Mother In law has been making short work of her tumor and hopefully in a matter of weeks, possibly days she will be undergoing surgery to remove it.

My husband and I have been taking care of her creatures... She is the female equivalent of Dr. Doolittle. Her animals miss her tremendously! I never thought too much of the relationship of human to animal until now. I really think it is an amazing bond, I have been privileged to witness over the past few months. You can tell that the horses know she is ill. She isn't always able to go with us to feed. But when she does they are gentler with her. They don't rush her like they used to when she was strong and healthy.

I think I'm becoming more aware of things lately. I don't know if I'm just coming into my own or aging or what is happening to me? But I had this A-ha moment yesterday at work when one of my co workers was complaining about how his wife got mad at him for leaving something where it wasn't supposed to be. I guess she just jumped all over him for it. I listened to his story for a bit and went back to my office thinking life is entirely too short for that crap. I never thought that I was a non-confrontational person? But I thought what good comes from bitching out your husband for putting his brief case on the hall table instead of under it? I guess I value the peace that Mr farmer and I have in our little life together too much. That just I don't see the point in getting all worked up over something so petty.

I know I'm rambling but I just thought I would put a thought into every one's head about maybe instead of bitching about something we can fix easily ourseleves. Maybe we should just do it and then just enjoy the peace from not being the nagging one...

Please flame me or comment I want your thoughts!

Can it suck ANYMORE?

I would like to talk to you all today about Identity Theft. I have been up to my elbows in a mess!! Our New Years started out with a bang!! We found out that our Joint Checking Account got hacked into... I feel so naked and exposed! I can't believe it happened!! As of a few hours ago they had gotten almost $500.00!! I can't understand why people feel the need to take what doesn't belong to them!!!

All I can say is I'm glad it was our play account. My husband and I just used this account for my spending or for online purchases. It was pretty much my account I would transfer money over from our other account to buy groceries gas or presents. We didn't pay bills out of this account. But it's still the fact that I have had to deal with the headache of opening another account, alerting the bank, the bank having to flag my account and stopping all transactions. Then after all that not having a freaking debit card to use!!!! I have never in my life had to walk up to a bank counter and write a check for cash! I never had to do that before! I always used my debit card in the ATM if I needed cash! Now I feel like I have fallen back into the 1950's!!! I have to go to the grocery store tonight with just cash!! I will actually have to track my purchases to make sure I don't go over the amount in my purse. I feel so weird!! Sorry I'm just so flabbergasted today!!! I always thought I was careful in my use of credit cards and the like. But I guess anyone can fall victim to Identity theft!

I'm sorry this had to be my first post back after several weeks being MIA please forgive me!! My brother came home for the holidays. I took off while he was home so we could spend some time together. It was great to have him around for a little while. He is actually stationed in Hawaii in the Navy. He was hoping we would get a huge snow storm while he was home since he hasn't seen snow for a few years now. But the one time we got a slight dusting of snow he actually slept in and it melted before he woke up... Poor kid!!! I have some pictures I need to up load from all the family time we got in while he was home. I'm actually familied out!! If that is a word? If not I declare this a new word!!! I love my family but goodness gracious I need my space. I don't count Hubby in all that. I always need him. And he doesn't get under my skin like my dear old bi polar mama.... Wow have I missed blogging!! Well gals I promise to get back on the wagon and post pictures and wonderfully quirky farm antics soon!!!

Love to you all
Mrs. Farmer

XOXOXOXOX

Valued Blogger

My greatest Bloggy friend Marla just nominated me for this wonderful honor and I so I'm going to do the same...

Thank You VERY VERY Much Marla!!!!

Here are the rules:

1.Tell your readers how your journey into blogging began. Be as verbose or shy as you like.

2.Pick 3-5 fellow bloggers whom you adore and write what exactly it is you value about that person or their blog. The more you write about them the better. This is a chance to really appreciate your blog friends who have been there with and for you through thick and thin.

3.Let the blessed winners know they have been awarded.

That's it. Those are the rules. Now, before you think you can give the old line, "I don't want to pick anyone to pass this award onto because I don't want my readers to feel hurt if I don't pick them, so consider yourselves all tagged" I want you to realize that excuse tells all of your blog friends that you are wimping out, amongst other things. ;) Don't feel bad that you can't award everyone, the award will make its rounds and eventually everyone will get it. If you feel bad enough, you can always award more than 5 bloggers.


I started my blog after reading the blog of a local woman in my home town. She wrote about her kiddos and just everyday life with 5 babies!!! She was an inspiration. Then from her blog I linked to another local women who had triplets and was a farmers wife and her story just spoke to my soul!! I never thought about how amazing the everyday occurances where in life until I had someone put them up on a screen with pictures... It really got me thinking how much fun it would be to document everything from the everyday mundane to the huge screw ups I usually get myself into. I loved how she wrote and I loved how this Farmers wife put pictures with her story. I wanted that too. But I was scared to death to be as open with my whole story and my life as she was. I wondered how she got so many readers. I was amazed by this whole world of blogs that I had never realized exitsited outside of my soy bean fields. So I slowly started to post somethings. I went on hiatus a couple times when I just couldn't think of what people wanted to read. So I wouldn't write anything. But I kept reading my blog roll and thats how I found
The Pioneer Woman and my whole world imploded on me. She was me exactly, except that she is skinny and red headed and is able to produce children and they don't have crops they have cattle but her life mirrored mine somewhat. I read every chapter of her Black Heels to Tractor Wheels and I was hooked she kept me begging for more and it was then that I realized I shouldn't be looking for what people want to read... I should blog about what I enjoy writing and taking pictures of. Just worry about being me and not anyone else.


Now onto the blogs...

I am picking 3 because making clicky links is not my forte! But I read soo many blogs and I love so many!! But these are 3 that have touched my soul recently. They have been though a lot lately and I really would like you all to show them some extra loving!!!

1.) The Circus Princess This women has such a beautiful soul! I hate that she is going through such a horrible loss. But she is surfacing and slowly coming to a better place. She is dealing with IF in Europe and her husband is also serving our great country and I take my hat off to her she is a trooper!!! Circus Princess you are my hero!!! I'm praying for you and and your hubby.

2.) Sass Oh where do I begin with Sass? She is a girl I would love to have as my next door neighbor!! She seems like such an awesome indivdual who I could just sit and chat with! Oh and drink Chocolate milk with too. Her posts are so heart warming. But recently her grandmother was diagnosed with cancer and Sass is under quite a bit of stres with that and her mama not being very nice towards her right now. Sassy I'm thinking of you dear and sending you lots of Chocolate milk hugs!!! And wishing you could come and do farming things with me... :)

3.) Kacy at Infertility Instability is a fellow farmers wife she knows the ups and downs of living on a farm with a man whose whole world is tied to the land. I love having some one else who is in the same boat as I am. She recently has suffered a loss and also just celebrated her birthday and is just not in a good place right now. I hope and pray that she can sail through the darkness she is in and come through all this stronger. I know she will I just hate seeing so many strong women brought to their knees with IF!!

So please visit my friends and give them a cyber hug (comment)

And thank you muchly Marla for nominating me for this award even though it took me soo stinking long to post it!!!!

Love and Hugs too you all!!!

Fur Babies: Missy

This is one of our 3 kids. She is the most spoiled of all three. She is the princess and she won't let anyone think any different.

Missy is our lovely little brat that came to us when I was pretty sick a couple years ago. She was a barn cat in my sister in law's horse barn. It was a hot nasty summer and I was having a lot of health issues they couldn't solve. I would faint anytime I was standing upright for a short period of time. So they took my driving privileges away and I really couldn't do anything but sit on the couch or lay on the bed all day. I couldn't go to work because I fainted too many times there. And they were worried about my safety, So I stayed home all day. It got pretty lonely. And my sister in law brought up the idea of my getting a cat! She said she had the cutest little gray fuzz ball that needed somebody to love it. But there was one small problem, I hated cats!! I absolutely abhorred felines!! I was a holy terror to the cats at my parents house growing up. So I thought why in the hell would I want a cat now? My sister in law kept saying it would help me pass the time and I wouldn't be soo lonely since Mr. Farmer was working in the fields all the time. But I still didn't like the idea. And she said this little kitty needs somebody to take it! It's too pretty to be a barn cat!! Mr. Farmer and I both kept saying NO!!! And then one night my Hubbs and I were at his parents home. Mr. Farmer's sister called him and asked us how long we were going to be down there and he said for a little while why? She said just hang out till I get there. So when she gets to the house our niece jumps out of the truck with a little gray cotton ball in her hands. And then his sister comes around the front of the truck with a bag of cat food and says here... They dumped her in my arms and I actually have to say I think it was love at first for that little shit!!! She was soo cute!!! Little beady blue eyes. And my mothering instinct took hold of me. I had to take care of this little booger cause all her little mates were getting trampled by the horses and she was just too darn cute to live in a barn for the rest of her kitty kat life... So I became the proud parent of a kitty. But mind you I have never and will never be a "Cat Person" I am a "Missy Person!" But NEVER a Cat Person!!! It was soo funny because the whole thing ended up being a set up!! Mr. Farmer's Mama had already bought a kitty litter pan and litter for my little booger and she also had a big bag of feed for little Miss Pissy Pants. So we we were had!!!





Missy became my little buddy. She never left my side when I was sick. When I was in the hospital she would hide until I came home. And then return to her normal routine of sitting on me or as close to me as possible for 24 7. She was the one thing/person I could vent all my frustrations too when the doctors couldn't figure my symptoms out. I'm not saying I couldn't talk about all this to Mr. Farmer. I just didn't want to complain to my hubby all the time. I knew he was under a lot of pressure. We were newlyweds his father had just had a stroke and here I was not able to stand for 10 minutes without ending up on the floor. So I did a lot of venting to the cat. She could take it. And when she had heard enough bitching and moaning she would just roll over stretch, yawn and fall asleep.



But I felt better having a beating heart near me. It made me feel like I was needed. And for the most part pretending like they needed me even though I wasn't a whole lot of use to anybody at that point in time. She was my anchor to sanity and that's a lot to write about a cat but its true. I had some dark days back then. But with the help of my kitty kat and my hubby they got me though it. It was 6 long months of endless tests and crazy miss-diagnosis. Thank God all that's over!! That's been almost 3 years ago and now Missy Pissy cat won't sit with me anymore. She loves her daddy a lot more then me. But I like to think of her as just being in her teenage years right now:) One day she will be my buddy again. She still follows me around everywhere. She just won't sit on my lap as often as she used to.


She watches TV with me all the time... This one looks like she didn't want me to change the station :)

Who would have thunk it!!!!

I never thought I would type this much less think it!!
Last night I was preparing for bed. I'm a creature of habit. Its pretty bad. I have to do certain things in a certain order or I just dont feel right. Yes I know that is OCD type behaviour... So last night I had washed my face and got ready to pull my meds, sharps containter, alcohol prep pads etc out of the cabinet and set up my little drug station to inject my meds... Then it hit me that I wasn't going to be doing that again. Not tonight and not for a good while!! I was really out of sorts almost. I felt like I had gotten told all over again that my cycle was cancelled. But this time I thought screw it!! I'm not going to cry about this again!! These hormones aren't going to keep kicking my butt! So I put my meds back in the cabinet and sat down. Then I saw the box of opk's! And I remembered reading how all the girls on the nest would do an opk right after trigger. And I actually thought that sounded desperate at the time to be quite honest. But I thought Fu$k it!! I'm going to pee on a stick!! I have stacks of those darn opk's and I will actually see two lines for a change. So I did it!! It ended up being the highlight of my day!! I peed on that stick and within seconds it was changing. I never in a million years thought that I would get a positive opk. So that was a good boost for the spirits at least. I didn't tell hubby I thought he would think I was nuts for wanting to waste them. But hey its good to know they weren't a bad batch after all!!! I was actually starting to wonder. I have probably peed on a hundred of them and never once saw 2 lines. But not this time!!!

I took a picture with my cell phone so its not a good quality picture! This is the first time I have ever taken a picture of my urine! I'm so glad I got to share this milestone event with you all!!